Bite my Tounge

I have had to act differently from what I believe personally. I remember being at work one day and one of my co-workers was talking about another co-worker to one of her friends, and they were saying some pretty mean things and made some racial comments that weren’t nice at all. I didn’t know how to act when I heard this. I was on the clock and I was so confused on how to act. Do I say something to her and maybe start a fight in the store, do I walk in the room and hope they stop talking, or do I just ignore it and go back to work. I was fairly new at my work when this happened so I didn’t want to start any type of problems that could get my hours cut or worse fired, so I just stayed in the room I was in and kept doing my work hoping that the manager would walk in and hear the horrible things this co-worker was saying. Well that never happened so because I was at work and I was new I just stayed in my room and let this co-worker bash this other co-worker and didn’t say a word. Normally if I wasn’t worker or maybe if I had been working there longer and felt comfortable then I probably would have confronted my co-worker and told them what I thought about what they were saying or even told a manager about the rude, horrible things they were saying. This was one of the hardest things I have even had to do because I am the type of person who speaks her mind and will tell you how I feel no matter what and if I believe or feel that something is wrong I am the first one to try and fix it. Well this was one of the hardest times when I have had to bite my tongue because I was afraid of acting out because I was worried about maybe losing my job. I felt really bad about it for a while because I didn’t say anything, I was in a funk kinda of because that isn’t me to not say anything if I think something is wrong I say it. I felt like my newness to the job held me back as a person and made me go against what I believed in personally. This taught me a lesson that maybe I shouldn’t of never said anything at all, but gone about the situation in a way that I could of maybe told my manager to watch out for the way this co-worker is talking about others and saying rude racial things that were being said and maybe warn them about their words. This taught me a lesson about how to handle things that I don’t personally agree with. It let me look at ways to handle a situation like that if it were to happen again and not make me feel bad about not saying anything.