suicidal

is suicide ever justified? well to the person who has commited the suicide, they obvisiouly thought that action of taking their own life was justified. i think that suicide is a very hard subject to deal with because people dont know alot about it because we cant talkto people who have done it. you can talk to people who have made attempts but they can never really tell someone how someone who has commited suicide feels, if it was justified or if the person wishes they could of taken their own death back or anything. personally thank god i have never personally experienced anyone that i knew commit suicide, nut i bet the loved ones of the people who do commit suicide feel that it is and unjustifibale act because they feel that the person could have worked things out and chosen a different path to take. i th ink that there are soo many different emotions that come from suicide that it makes why people doi t and if it is justifiable confusing for people to decide. i think that for the people who are commiting suicide, feel it is justifyed because suicide is their last straw, i think that they feel nothing else will help them, nothing else in this world can make them feel better excpet for taking themselves out of this world. people who are looking from the outside of the person who is commiting suicide is thinking that this person has soo many more options and that their life doesnt have to end, they can be happy and make their life work like it used to once again. i know that alot of people really look down on suicide, as they should because there is no coming back from suicide, it is a make it or break it decision and noone wants anyone to make that breaking decision of taking their own life. i also think that people from the outside are upset because the person who is commiting suicide is being selfsish and taking themselves away from alot of people who do love them and care deeply for them, this is why people think that suicide is not justifyed. the people who commit suicide think that this is a justiyable act, the people who have to deal with the repercussions dont think this act is justifyable, i think it depends which side you are looking from.

history with no novocain

My history classes this semester are like going to the dentist and getting my teeth pulled with no Novocain at all. Each time I step into that, boring, pale freezing cold classroom I get the shakes, like when I first walk into that horrible smelling dentist’s office. Everyone knows that disgusting smell of the dentist office; it makes your stomach do flips! That’s how my stomach feels when I walk into that classroom and have to listen to these lectures on history! They are sooooo boring! The lectures are like waiting for the dentist to call you back and have you sit in that chair and have you look at all the sharp tools he is about to poke and prod at in your mouth! Lectures are the anticipation to the test, like waiting in that damn chair and having to imagine what the dentist is going to do to your mouth. Each lecture is like each minute you sit there in that chair in that bright white room with that insanely bright white light above your head, and having beads of sweat build of on your forehead and start to drip down. Each minute you sit in that chair seems like an eternity! That’s exactly how I feel when I have to go and sit in my history class and I look at the clock, it never seems like the hands move. I feel like I’m stuck in a time warp, and I get that same exact feeling whenever I have to sit in the horrible dentist chair with that bib tied around me like I’m a little baby, I feel like a little baby because of all the anticipation of waiting makes me soo nervous and anxious. I get the same nervous anxious feeling whenever it is test day in my horrible boring history class and my teacher is going to hand out the test. Once that nasty test hits my desk and I turn it over and read the first question, it is like the dentist coming in and making you open your mouth as wide as it can go with out breaking your jaw! Then the dentist picking at all your teeth checking which ones have cavities in them, each tooth the dentist checks is like each question on my history test. Each question gets worse and worse as I go on, first its some multiple choice questions then some matching and then short answer and then last and the worst part of the entire test is the essay questions! The essay question is like the dentist going straight to drilling with out putting any Novocain in my gums at all!! Hearing that drill buzz in your ear along with all the pain of getting that cavity filled! I would rather do the dentists office with no Novocain then have to sit the rest of the semester in my history classes and have to take these tests. History class is worse than the dentist to me and I just cant wait for this visit to be over so I can never have to talk about history ever ever again!!!

Types

I think that people do have “types” when it come to the people they like or attrached to. People have certain likes and dislikes when they are looking for a partner, these likes are both physical and personality wise. I know personally I have a type of guy that I like and am attrached to. Physically the taller the better, nice eyes, good teeth, and not skinny! From fisrt look that's what I am attrached to when I see a guy that I could possibly date. Personality wise, I need someone funny and who isn't a pushover but still treats me how a girl should be treated. Oh and I have one more kind of “type” I have a weakness for baseball players, especially catchers. i know this whole type stuff can sound kind of shallow, but being physically atrracted to someone can sometimes make or break a relationship. i also think that people have certain types because they are afriand of trying something new and come out of their comfort zone and trying something different.
I think that people have“types” because they were taught to them either by their peers or their family. I know that most of my friends and I like the same types of guys when it comes to physical and personality traits. I know that my family has some standards when it comes to the guys I date and I know that I only bring a guy home that fits the type of guy that my parents approve of. I think this is where types come from and I think that they are learned from peoples surroundings. I believe that the physical attractiveness is a huge part and the whole “type” issuse because I think that being physically attracted to someone is abig part in a relationship or a prospective relationship. I do think there are such things as types and people do have them no matter what they say.

Bite my Tounge

I have had to act differently from what I believe personally. I remember being at work one day and one of my co-workers was talking about another co-worker to one of her friends, and they were saying some pretty mean things and made some racial comments that weren’t nice at all. I didn’t know how to act when I heard this. I was on the clock and I was so confused on how to act. Do I say something to her and maybe start a fight in the store, do I walk in the room and hope they stop talking, or do I just ignore it and go back to work. I was fairly new at my work when this happened so I didn’t want to start any type of problems that could get my hours cut or worse fired, so I just stayed in the room I was in and kept doing my work hoping that the manager would walk in and hear the horrible things this co-worker was saying. Well that never happened so because I was at work and I was new I just stayed in my room and let this co-worker bash this other co-worker and didn’t say a word. Normally if I wasn’t worker or maybe if I had been working there longer and felt comfortable then I probably would have confronted my co-worker and told them what I thought about what they were saying or even told a manager about the rude, horrible things they were saying. This was one of the hardest things I have even had to do because I am the type of person who speaks her mind and will tell you how I feel no matter what and if I believe or feel that something is wrong I am the first one to try and fix it. Well this was one of the hardest times when I have had to bite my tongue because I was afraid of acting out because I was worried about maybe losing my job. I felt really bad about it for a while because I didn’t say anything, I was in a funk kinda of because that isn’t me to not say anything if I think something is wrong I say it. I felt like my newness to the job held me back as a person and made me go against what I believed in personally. This taught me a lesson that maybe I shouldn’t of never said anything at all, but gone about the situation in a way that I could of maybe told my manager to watch out for the way this co-worker is talking about others and saying rude racial things that were being said and maybe warn them about their words. This taught me a lesson about how to handle things that I don’t personally agree with. It let me look at ways to handle a situation like that if it were to happen again and not make me feel bad about not saying anything.